shiram wrote:I still exist!
Yupp, and just as I imagined it was you and Roam who answered.
RoamingMadness wrote:I know exactly what you mean in terms of priorities Bane, life got busy fast. Hope you're all doing well.
I'am doing well, at least proffesionally. Been working my ass off this last year and have actually started something of a "career". Unfortunately my GF have a really shitty year when it comes to work and ahs ended up at bad places and/or with crappy short-term consultant assignements. This ofc has taken a toll at the relationship and I think she's considering moving back home (which is far, far north from where we live now). To be honest, i don't even know that I would follow her for love.. She thinks she has sacrified everything for me and that I don't do the same for her. Maybe she's right, I don't want to leave my home town and move ~500 miles up north.
We've ridden out these kind of storms in the past, but I just don't know how much more of her melodrama I can take. I swore to myself after my last relationship that I would never end up in a relationship which had no ups and downs, just mellow middle ground. During me and my ex's five year long relationship we never fought, never argued, never threw things at each other nor did we have those sensational ups where you reach the heighs of love which are so rare but where it seems it's impossible to become any happier. My current realtionship holds all of these features (which was one of he reasons I fell in love with this girl..), however, with time the latter ones (the positive moments) are growing more scarce and the former (arguing, yelling, shouting, fighting) are growing more and more common. In any given week, we have two good days, three bad ones, and two boring ones.. :-/
So right now, this particular sunday, I'm sitting at home with a golden opportunity to choose from 4 different jobs which I can get after he project I'm in is over but I can't talk to my GF about it sine she's downsairs sulking because I didn't had much contact with her yesterday when I was out with friends and my cell phone had practically zero battery. Apperently I had promised to give her a call, got drunk and forgot as usual. SHe does the same thing, but for some reason, it's worse when I'm the one doing it
We've even discussed children of course. She's 33 and I'm turning 32 in a week, so time is of the essence. She don't want to have, or even consider kids, before she has a good job and a secured future. This I can understand ofc, but I want to be able to talk to her about kids without her getting sad, angry or both because her work situation is so fucked up.
OK, apparently I needed to ventilate, heh.. growing old and more focused on work has brought many things, some of them not so pleasant: I have pretty much no "real" friends left. Sure, I have mates to drink beer with, play FIFA with or go to a movie with, but none of them are like "bro's". I miss that kind of friendship I had when I was younger, when some mates were such a huge part of your life that it was impossible to imagine life without them, not a single week passed without seeing them.
Been drinking to much as well. Stopped drunk posting in here though, heh.. But I see the signals. I've reached the point where I'm close to making up exscuses just to get a reason to drink.
OK update. Just when I was writing this, GF came up and we've talked for like two-three hours at least. Goddamn, scratch the above. I fucking love her and we're gonna make it. Funny how things work out, heh.. just as I was writing and ranting about possibly ending this, we talk for hours and worked things out again.
Long post. Lub you guys. Over and out.
At least it's prolly a sign of an end of an era and a change of priorities.
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So kudos to you Kad for paying the bucks to have this place afloat. 
