5 and a hlaf years

Bane · Post by **Bane** » Sat May 09, 2009 5:29 am

..it's over. Me and my girlfriend has just broken up,.

Pain.

Styrofoam · Post by **Styrofoam** » Sat May 09, 2009 9:36 am

man, i'm sorry bro.

Bane · Post by **Bane** » Sun May 10, 2009 8:18 am

I just lost my job, I dunno if I ever want to make a carrer in what I actually studied.. and now I live with my ex-girlfriend in a very .. tense situation. I can't get an apartement wihtout a job, I do not ever want to move back in with my parents.

My life is spiraling out of control.

I'm pushing thirty and I'm in a situation which is so far from adult life it can be. My mind is full of questuions I should have asked myself ten years ago, "what do I really want to do with my life?", "what profession do I really want to spend the rest of my life in?", "do I really want to live in Gothenburg?" and stuff like that.. I jsut don't know what to dio with myself, with my life..

I know I have to search for whatever job I can get, so that I can get myself somewhere crappy to live, so that I can try to find myself and find out what I want to do. But by taking any job I can get, I mess up my chances of ever having a great career in economics and managemtn accounting, since the CV is everything and everyone else you compete with for the good jobs have great CV's and of course connections..

Fuck, this really blows.

Had to ventilate somewhere.. It's in times like this I love the fact that this place is still (somewhat) alive.

Darius · Post by **Darius** » Mon May 11, 2009 11:35 am

Sorry to hear that, mate. Don't worry though, there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

Besides, life is always a kind of a compromise. Do you think that I really 100% enjoy what I do professionally? I also think I'd be happier if I become a professional athlete like I intended to. Banking and economics are a bit boring stuff, tbh. But... My current job is decently exciting, I have the opportunity to create, and I work with fine people. Money is pretty OK as well, which enables me to pursue my hobbies. Life is a compromise. It's gonna be alright, Banester

Hylandor · Post by **Hylandor** » Mon May 11, 2009 10:41 pm

I lost my job one week ago. I, like you, am asking myself the same questions. Our lease on this townhouse is expiring soon, and I want to continue living where I am, and with the same roomates. I need to get a job quickly, and I want it to be somewhat relative to my major, else I feel like I'll NEVER be able to get a job relating to it. I want to be careful on what type of job I pickup, but I don't exactly have the time or money to be picky.

Wasn't prepared for this at all... at least it happened just before my lease expiration rather than just after I would have signed for an additional year.

Defer your school loans and begin contacting friends and family, to begin networking.

Bane · Post by **Bane** » Tue May 12, 2009 12:58 pm

Hylandor wrote: Defer your school loans and begin contacting friends and family, to begin networking.

Yeah mate, done that already. We've searched a couple of apartment already, "we" as in trading our old one vs a new one or two smaller ones, and I have talked to my mom who has a cousin who owns a couple of estates in the city. My ex-girlfriends (damn, that's weird to write out.. first time sincve the break-up I ahve reffered to her as my ex) aunts boyfriend is some sort of big slick with connections everywhere, and he also promised to ask his big slick friends about apartments.

It has become slightly better though these last few days. We both agree on that this was the right decision. We have cried together, morning the "death" of our old love almost as if we were two parents morning a dead child, or something similar. We are still freinds who care alot about eachother, and we can still be under the same roof wtihout scrathinch out eachotehrs eyes.. but damn, it's still hard as hell trying to cope with the new situation.

Good thing for you Hylandor that you didn't sign the lease again then. And yeah, about looking for new jobs, what should one do when ya need the cash? If I do manage to get a job, which is extremely hard these days when everyone around you are losing theirs and unemployment is sky-rocketing, will it look "bad" on the resume? I can't afford to think that way really, I just have to survive.. I will just have to wait another couple of years before and can thrive... and here I was, a year ago, freshly graduated thinking I was in the fast lane, heading for greatness and happyness, hahah.. what a fucking naive moron I was.

Dar, didn't think you was around still. Good to see ya write a few lines and to hear you are doing good. I am fully aware that life is often about compromise, but right now it's more in the line of "sacrifice" than anything.. I have to sacrifice my old dreams for the harsh reality and face the future with an open mind.

Some time ago in a moment of clarity during a drunken haze, I said to a friend of mine that 2009 was either going to be the best year of my life, or the worst. Either it just hit rock bottom, and then kept climbing upwards with a new great job, a new apartment and stuff like that, or it will perhaps become alot worse, like me having to move in my parents and shit like that, heh..

Time will tell.

shiram · Post by **shiram** » Wed May 13, 2009 2:06 pm

ill be 28 in july, and i can relate to almost all you said
my job kinda sucks, and id like to change, but i'd need studies to find something decent, and just switching companies.. it would still be the same job
plus now im used to this lifestyle i have been living for 3-4 years now

i just picked a new apartment, but i know i wont be staying there more than a year, should i get a house, alone?? thats a freaking wad of cash...
and im not even sure i wanna stay in the city

i think alot of us at this age asks ourselves those questions... its a pivotal time
i think the only place you can find your answers is in yourself